Down the river a little more

So I go on with my life, acting out my role in a play that is just harder and harder to do after every show. But I keep at it and begin separating who I am from my character, which would have been just right if I was on a play instead of life. The separation then begins to create two lives for me. So I begin living both lives and developing them separately. At first this process is a relief for me, I finally have an outlet and it feels good. But slowly I begin to realize that I do have two lives and they are completely separated from each other and what's worse I cannot allow them to cross paths. They're just too different, it's too far gone so I set about keeping each life from the other.