As I got on the road back and started moving I needed to pay for my "stay" as it were. So I had relationship collapse, I isolated myself from friends and family, my work suffered, my mood worsened, I became a moody person that spend a great deal of time upset or would be thrown into a "mood" by random things. To be where I was turned out to be a very pricy place.
As the worlds began to come closer I realized that the side with the "truer" me was the one I cared about the most. While at the same time it was the one in which I had been very disingenuous. I had created a world that I was falling in love with that needed to be fixed with truth but could mean that it'd be the end of the best parts of it. However, as I went along there was a big fight with my will, my ego, to keep that world as intact. I was losing to my ego a lot at first, which made me frustrated and well back to moody. Slowly the change started and true change was well on its way. So, somewhere along the way less than a year ago I made the complete move from trying to keep as much of my two worlds apart as possible to actually doing the work of bringing them together.
throughout this time there was someone walking with me who kept on helping me along and I will be forever thankful for it.
