So while living in hiding I did and said many things. As I started my long way back to just one me the hiding part of my life was beginning to catch up with me. I mentioned earlier a serious relationship ending. It still hurts to think that it ended the way it did, it is a big deal to go from ending something on the way to marriage. The details are very important but not only relating to me so they remain private but I can say that my world at this time maybe 1 1/2 year ago was a swirling storm. I knew I had turned and was going somewhere but did not where and kept on making wrong turns and false starts. I had no directions as I didn't know where I was going, I had really forgotten who I was before I left for this trip. In addition to that all the lies I had said needed to be either sustained or I had to come clean. I don't know if anyone is actually reading this but if you don't know who I am this is just another blog. If you do know who I am I'm sorry if you were hurt by me during this time. Or if you are being hurt now by reading about this. I need to do this and other things to finish this short but terrible period of my life. I have lost much and deservedly. I hurt someone very deeply who is a great person and I will probably never hear from or be in touch with again. I also met someone around this time who in many ways I wish I were 're-meeting now, but I digress.
as I started moving out of the depths of this part of my life my worlds started moving towards each other. The closer they came to each other the harder it was to sustain the differences.
