So I heard that my postings here seem as if someone took a private journal and published it. My friend is right, these postings have been a bit of a behind the scenes look at a person during a very particularly difficult time. Interestingly it could have gone either way, until very recently it was a very good time, yet life is full of unexpected turns.
It is very difficult to see a process when one is living it until there's some tangible change and a bit of introspection. That is what has happened to me these past two and 1/2 weeks. The change has been there for a while now but the ability to see it was hampered by the closeness to it. I did pour a great deal of me into these posts and I'm sure I also was a bit too open about some things. I hope all I have exposed here is me and no one else, it was done as a way to workout some stuff. When it all started it was simply a way to be distracted, yet it became something entirely different as it went on. I think I'll keep on writing here but I'm sorry to say it may not be as "back stage" as the previous ones were. Then again, I didn't think these posts were going to be such an open book story when I started them haha.
